Ryan O’Neal’s regrets

Ryan O’Neal is still discussing the cancer that killed his longtime lover, Farrah Fawcett, and apparently having some regret and survivor’s guilt.

“I’d love to do it over. I would have been much kinder, more understanding, more mature. I’d lose some of the savagery. I don’t know how she got cancer – maybe some of it was me,” O’Neal told Vanity Fair. Yeah, Ryan, being mean causes cancer. That’s why Hollywood types I hate are dropping like flies.

He and Fawcett dated for 20 years and had a son together (Redmond, 24, now in rehab). They split in 1998, but then got back together in 2001 after O’Neal discovered he had leukemia.

Speaking about the split, O’Neal said: “I believe Farrah was going through some kind of life change. I didn’t have a change of life. I was always a jerk. But they’re hard work, these divas. I was sick of it, and I was unappreciated.

“I just don’t think she liked me very much. So I excused myself. We pulled apart, but we never popped loose.”